The extent of her strength

(Our sweet girl, Crea, in Momma's arms)

 

 

When we found out about Crea’s disabilities, the doctor told us not to go online. He said there was so much information out there, some right, some not so right, it would overwhelm us. We accepted what he shared with us and we never went online.

Fast forward to the other day.  I was home and curious. I searched Omphalecele. Boy!  After just 10 minutes of clicking on link after link, I was overwhelmed! I shut the screens and sat at my desk. As I sat there and tears filled my eyes, I smiled. “Thank you baby girl. Thank you for being so strong”, I whispered.

Here is the thing, as I read through the words on these screens, I realized Crea was 1 in a million. Not in a good way. All the words on the screen where laying out the severities of omphalecele and all the other possible things that could be wrong but weren’t “common”. In fact, many articles shared how “rare” the chances were of having this, this and that. As I read through all the possibilities and realized our little girl had all the other possibilities of complications, I realized how absolutely miraculous it was that we got to meet her! Not only did she fight and stay strong in a womb with no water bag for over 10 weeks, she was born alive, went through 3 hours of surgery at just 2 hours old and still fought to allow us to hold her and spend time with her.

She fought all the odds.

She won.

We won.

I knew that she was a warrior. I knew that she was a miracle. I knew spending time with her was a miracle manifested on this earth especially for us. But reading through all the possibilities and how impossible it was for her, my heart overflowed with gratitude. To her. To her maker. To our journey.

Tonight, as I scribe these words and I reflect on a weekend well spent with my faithful husband, my heart is so content. I have spent the weekend talking about our journey and our baby girl with no tears; only joy, gratitude and pride. I look at her pictures and I am so, so proud. No, these earthly moments aren’t always easy living without her, but truly, without reservation, my heart is content. My dream came true because of her strength. I am grateful.