Always wanting to live in another time...

As I sit on my bed, wearing my pajamas that remind me of being a little girl, I wonder, "will we always want to be in another time?"

Let me explain.

The pajamas I am wearing were given to me by my best friend. Last year, I was reminiscing about how I remember being a little kid and loving my one piece pajamas that zipped clear across the front and had attached feet. I told her I had looked high and low but my search was to no avail. Well, leave it to her to find all things! I received them last year. Tonight is their voyage evening for this winter. As soon as I took them out of the drawer, I got so excited! I began to reminisce of being a child. Living in our little mobile home. My mom would make "chocolate abuelita" and we would be sitting in front of our TV, listening to the heater going on and off.

So many times I find myself missing what was. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the life I have today and am certain I will enjoy tomorrow and the tomorrow's after that, but there are a lot of times that I find myself SO longing to go back to the "simpler days". The days when there wasn't a care in the world. Of course, I didn't know those days were so great back then because I was in the middle of them and either I was a kid or I was a punk teenager being a jerk. But none-the-less, I miss them.

Tonight I went and had dinner with my brother. When we got home, we were talking about the cat and he mentioned my cat, "poopie". I was like, "what are you talking about? I never had a cat name poopie". He said, " Ya! The one that used to poop everywhere. He pooped in your pom-pom's." SO funny! I couldn't remember the cat, but I definitely remembered my pooped on pom-pom's! We got rid of that dumb cat. My brother will tell you it's because, "we couldn't have him pooping in the princess' room." I will contend it's because we had too many animals.

But I digress.

So many memories are created as we live each day out. And yet, we don't realize we are in the middle of them. Now, as an adult, I think about the last vacation we took as a family. If I had only known that it was going to be our last. Would I have cherished it more? What would have been different? I don't know. But I do know that feeling like I want to go back and live that life again is something I often long.

SO....for me. I think I will always find a part of me wanting to live in yester-year. So as I close this blog tonight cuddled up in my pink footie PJ's, I will sit here for a moment and think about all that was, but also appreciate all that is!

My weekend at the RRR Ranch

Greetings all!

I hope this blog finds you all well and in good spirits. I just spent a weekend of total relaxation and rest. Terry took me out to his ranch in South Texas and I have to say....it is TRULY God's country out there! It is amazing!

He owns land that sits on a hill and rolls down all around it. He is a hunter, so I got to learn a great deal about hunting. Uh....did I mention it is BOW hunting...wow! What an art THAT is! Pretty amazing really!

We get there and settle into "camp" which really isn't camping as I remember it! There was a home with washer, dryer, sinks, showers, and even a jacuzzi tub and big screen tv....this isn't camping like I remember it! LOL! We got our stuff unloaded and then sit by the fire.

Let me share a little about this firepit. uh...it is HUGE! I do mean LARGE! Well, I love watching and tending to the fire and we didn't want to get it SUPER big, so there was a moment when I was tending it from inside the fire pit. LOL! Terry thought my pappy would get a kick out of seeing that so he took a pic! It was quite funny! We went to bed early in the morning and got up about 3 hours later so as not to miss the morning. Drank coffee and then wandered around. Gosh, driving in at night and falling in love with the place was minimal compared to seeing it in the morning sun! He introduced me to his sheep, of which I have named. (yes, yes, I know...don't name them, they'll become pets and one day have to sit on your plate....so what? I say!) LOL! We hiked up and down hills and pastures as he pointed out what it was before, what it is now and what it will be one day. It was an amazing place!


Well, long story short, I got to experience God's great country. Terry and I sat in a deer blind on Saturday for about 4 hours, but we couldn't stop laughing enough to keep quite and let the deer come in. OH WELL! Maybe next time! We DID however, spot turkey, a red fox and some small "spikes" (deer that are bucks, or males, that have small antlers). We also saw the Black Buck he brought in from India. He has had them about 8 years and says he never sees them...I must be good luck, we saw them 3 times...I even got pictures! (she smiles proudly)

All in all, it was an amazing weekend. I really am grateful and look forward to returning in a few weeks. All my life, I knew I was a "country girl" at heart. This weekend confirmed it for me. The country is the ONLY place I will ever be truly me!

PS
This blogger isn't letting me put up all my pic's so I will put them up in sections and narrate! It's late, I'm going to bed!

I LOVE TEXAS!

Greetings all!

Yikes! It's almost been a month since I last wrote. ...doesn't mean I haven't been writing, just haven't posted here. Time does fly!

So today I was driving home after I stopped at the gas station where gas is $2.47...yep, you read right! Two dollars and forty seven cents! Yowsers! I filled up my little box for a whole $21! Ya, ya, it may not be the COOLEST car on earth, but how many of you can say you can fill up for that!!

Anyway, I was driving home, listening to some good ol Texas country music and this lady drives up beside me. Her window is rolled down and she is telling me, "Your gas cap is open!" I look at her, give her the thumbs up and she waves on by. I pull over, switch on my hazards, and go to close it. I am on a highway that has 3 lanes on my side and I see cars on the lane closest to where I am stopped and as they see me, they all move over to a lane further from me. (I sigh) I LOVE TEXAS! People are just NICE! Genuinely NICE! I get in my little car, heart full of gratitude for this great state and as I look around, see open fields, horses, bails of hay, birds and lots of trees. I am grateful to be in this great state! This, for sure, is GOD'S COUNTRY!!! For those of you throughout the US that would try to dispute that, sorry....no case here! It's shut! I LOVE THIS PLACE!

A whole lot going on here! My family came in and visited and we got to spend a lot of time together. It was a good time and I thoroughly enjoyed it! New chapters opening in my life, of which I shall speak of later....time tells all things, but I am very much loving it! No, not everything is perfect as I journey through these days, but if nothing else, I am grateful for my family, friends, and loved ones. Though my mind gets filled with worries of tomorrow, I am grateful that yesterday is over and keeps moving further away! I know I am not where I want to be, but I am SO grateful I am not where I used to be! The air is cleaner, the sky is bluer and life is beyond just bareable, it is a good one today!

I have so many random thoughts that I have written in the last month, but for whatever reason, they just don't seem "postable". LOL!

Something on my heart today, however, that is near and dear.
Some of you may or may not know, but in my lifetime, I have had to "bury" children, or hopes of them. A few failed preganancies left me empty at times and yes, sometimes I feel the scars that have been left behind. I don't know the reasons as to why, how, and what, but I do know that all things happen for a reason. HOWEVER, I bring this up because today is Oct 15. It is the official day of Pregnancy and Infant loss nationally. (yes, there is actually an organization) So tonight, just as many others across this great nation, I will light a candle and remember those that we never saw and those that maybe we had for a little while and we lost. If you or someone you know has lost someone, maybe take a moment to do that for them. And for those of you who have been so fortunate to see the fruit of a pregnancy and celebrate all the great firsts, hug on your munchkins, TRULY, they are an incredible miracle!

Anyway....hope all is well with all! I will try to get on this and scribe more regularly....I was doing so good! LOL!