So it has been a year since I started this blog!
Well, actually, the anniversary was a few days ago but I am just NOW getting to this write. I have several blogs I have written that have yet to see the light of day... a lot of it because they don’t have the depth I would like them to, some because they just aren’t done and other because it will take brave moment for them to ever see the light of day.
But for today, let’s update! This morning I was sitting outside having my coffee thinking about all I had to do today, this week, this month and my thoughts were interrupted by a tapping. “Tap, tap-tap, tap.” I look around…see nothing. “Tap, tap-tap, tap.” I look towards the gardens, past the shop, around the shed…nothing. “Tap, tap-tap, tap.” I sit back down and watch as Bruto chases the sheep. The squirrels are pounding and the blue jays are teasing them, threatening to take their corn. “Tap, tap-tap, tap.”
I look up. There! There it is! Way up high, where it looks like the tree top touches the clear sky, two birds perching on the very top of this very tall tree. As I look up at them, one of them looks down at me and with a quick flick of the neck disregards me and peers passed our pasture to look at what I am sure is the lake. “You have the best view in the house”, I whisper. I spend a few moments admiring him when a small breeze gently touches my face and pulls me out of my gaze…I take a deep breathe.
I am breathing.
“Of course you’re breathing,” you say. But listen….my heart is beating stronger than I have known it to in such a long time. I feel that my legs are strong and firm. My hands are more productive than they have been in the past 2 ½ years. My mind doesn’t race with non-sense, confusion or doubt. I notice each breathe I take and I am grateful.
My thoughts are cut short as I hear one of the birds above me flap his wings as he darts towards the lake. I think, “I wonder if he understands what a gift it is to be able to both fly and walk.” I small smile crosses my face. I walk. I fly. I understand this gift. I am grateful.
The very first time I scribed words to my blog was when I had seen my sister’s and got inspired to write again. I remember sitting in my room thinking, “this is going to be great!” Yesterday I sat and read through my year of life as I captured certain moments with words. I can remember where I was, what happened and the vivid details of each moment that inspired each write. There were some where I smiled as I read them, in some I laughed out loud, others my eyes welled up with tears and some I smiled, laughed and cried.
I am not a woman that knows a lot of things. I hold no degrees or honors and my possessions are nothing to brag on. But as I read each word, I was proud. Proud because I have been Blessed with a family who has chosen to love me through the times that I am unlovable. I have friends that are always perfectly in season. I have an incredible man in my life who is in love with the true blue me and appreciates every moment. I am finally living my dreams on so many levels. Today, I am walking strong. Today, I fly. I am grateful.
So as I wrap my “Anniversary Blog” up, I’d like to THANK YOU! Not for reading my blog, but for being a part of all of the moments in my life that are like an orchestra, perfectly in key. All the moments you have been a part of are the music of my life and the dance has been unforgettable! Thanks for being a part of this great life!
Grateful, so grateful to the Almighty who loves to watch me breathe, smile, walk, fly and dance. Thank you!
My love,
Lizzie
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