Friday Ramblings

Greetings all!

It's Friday. It's cold. No, scratch that, it is freezing! In fact, it is colder in my office than it is outside. The heater is out! So, between my shiver, I scribe these few words.

Uh...lets see. I don't really have any topic to speak of, just was sitting here at work and thought I would pose something.

The holidays are right around the corner and I can NOT believe we are already at another Christmas, at the cusp of another year! Where does time go? Last night I was waiting to go to my board meeting and I saw that Rudolph the Rednose Reindeer was on TV. I stopped to look at it for a moment and I got to reminiscing of the times that were. When we were young and the the world was carefree. All that mattered was that I had my blanket and pillows as my mom would make some kind of yummy goodness and make sure the heater was set in our small mobile home. I remember the smells of the house, the sounds, and most of all the warmth. My brothers and I sitting around our meager TV, but so thrilled! (she smiles) Where did those days go?

Then we grow up, each live our lives and develop our own set of ideals and establish a way of our own life. What was, is no more and may never be again. The fights about putting clay on legos or hanging my cabbage patch with a hang-man's noose are now at another level; now they are direct to the heart. We grow up and the innocence or believing the best in each other is tarnished. Time spent together is scarce. But in all of that, we continue to have the memories and in all of that, we have the opportunity to create more. I guess sometimes it is just a matter of putting ourselves aside? I don't know.

What I do know is this...
I love my life. I have the least I have had in a very long time, as far as possessions. I clip coupons to save money here and there. I actually look at price tags before I throw items in my cart. I don't have a large home or fancy car. I no longer carry a $1500 purse, nor am I concerned about a hair being out of place, my makeup being done a certain way or the fact that the outfit I have on doesn't fit right because again, I have gained weight. I no longer put my smile on with my makeup.
In the simplicity I have been thrust into, I feel SO much joy! I feel. I think that is what it is. I am ever-so-grateful for the place I am in. Although things are a bit strained with my family, I very much appreciate the place we are in because I know it wont last. I am grateful for having a brother that no matter what has always been there, without judgment or ridicule. I am ever-so-grateful for a sister-in-law who constantly impresses me with her savy and talent. I a SO grateful for my niece. Every time she says, "Tika" or looks at me with her big brown eyes just melts me! I am so grateful for Becky-wecks who is one of the only examples in my life that I know of who God TRULY is! In all of it, she is unwaivering and truly loves me to a fault! eh....I don't know...I think I am just rambling, but I felt like writing...so there it is! LOL!
I am happy it is Friday and just a few days before Terry and I head out for a week of road trippin. I am SO excited!! We have a great camera so will take lots of photos and I am sure I will have lots to tell when I get back. I sware, we have done more in the few months we've been together than most couples do in a year...and it is all of the small, simple things! Truly, this has to be the love of my life!!! Not just what I need, but he is everything I want. After divorce, I wasn't sure of what, when, where, what after knowing my ex-husband most of my life. But in all of it, Terry was out there. The right moment just had to hit. I have heard so many girls/women speak of their boyfriends/husbands and all they are/were. I would smile with envy thinking, "that doesn't exist anymore and if it does, it won't ever happen to me." well, THANK GOD my word is not the last word!! He is THAT man. I am THAT woman. We are THAT couple. I am grateful!!

Anyway, I digress! LOL!

I will probably get back on to blog right before I leave and then when I get back! Have a great weekend!!!